Everyone expects me to be there for them when they're depressed or anxious or overwhelmed. Everyone expects me to be the strong mature one because I'm the oldest in the group. And if I'm ever overwhelmed or anxious or depressed, oh well, just suck it up cuz it's my job to be there for everyone else. I'm tired of being the adult. You're all adults now too. I'm tired of being the doormat. I'm so exhausted. I'm so tired of having things dangled in front of me only to be yanked away, and then expected to just be okay with it and suck it up because life's not fair. I'm tired of having everything I try fail. I'm just so tired.